Ingenue

So long, farewell Blogspot.

I'm moving. Yes. No more Blogspot. I'm sick and tired of Blogger.

For more of my self-indulgent boring life, visit me at www.upsaid.com/lovebugz8

Doodles.

posted by ingenue @ 10:23 AM

I feel fuck-ed after "Butterfly Effect" last night. It wasn't as bad as I expected (plot & effects) but performance-wise... blah. It is a huge attempt by Ashton Kutcher from generic "That 70s Show" comic to suspense-drama. Unfortunately, it doesn't feel right not to laugh at Kutcher for a change. Nice try, dude but it's not working.

Had a late night with Boon, Shaun, Dan and Lidong - watching their short films & hanging out at Lazy Lizard. It's been awhile since I last hang out outside till the next morning for no reason. I think the last time was Cold Storage at Railway Mall with Dan and Boon. That was a loonnggg time ago.

Broke my sandals yesterday and got myself a pair of white shoes. According to Dan, it is not a "xiaowen" shoe. Hmm. What is a "xiaowen" shoe then? Converse? I like those white shoes. I already dirtied them. Bummerish. I feel like purist walking around in all-white. Nice.

posted by ingenue @ 8:58 AM

Johnny Depp won Outstanding Performance by a Male Actor in a Leading Role for his role in Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl. WOW. He really is a dark horse winner for beating favourites like Sean Penn (Mystic River), Bill Murray (Lost in Translation), and Ben Kingsley (House of Sand and Fog). Charlize Theron won for Monster. She'll probably win her first Oscar. Hmm, and she's dating Stuart Townsend! Dammit. Some people are just so lucky.

I'm cooking pasta today. Yippee!

posted by ingenue @ 6:45 PM

I wasted $6.50 today on a period chick-flick, Gladiatress. I should have spent the money on Raising Victor Vargas instead. Oh well. I consider that one of my bad choices in life. I still wanna watch City of God. Sigh. However, I'm not in the mood for long, epic & draggy films. Films within the range of 1 1/2 hrs - 2 hrs are good enough.

There are some events in life that you can't recover from. I have a few bad events or maybe "decisions" - the repercussions are still lingering around. If only I could CTRL+Z everything, life would be much easier to bear with. Attachments are evil. That's a bloody fact. I wish I could feel REAL freedom. I wanna be detach from everything and everyone. I believe I could be much contented and happier.

We all need a holiday. Really.

posted by ingenue @ 7:04 AM

Dear brain,

You're the strongest person that I've ever met. If I've been through half of what you have today, I wouldn't have survived. I suck at dealing with death - not because I cannot accept reality but I cannot control my own emotions. You're the master in hiding emotions. It's not a crime to cry - however, I wish I could lend you my shoulders to cry on with a big box of Kleenex beside like how you listen to me when I cry previously.

I'm sorry I can't be there to pay my last respects to your mum. She is also like my mum to me. Stay calm. Take care. We'll go for our little island holiday soon - away from life, ex-boyfriends, school, work, family & many stupid phone calls. We all need a break. Later, girl.

Love, worm

posted by ingenue @ 7:17 AM