Ingenue

::death is certain::

Reading Nick Hornby’s “How To Be Good” and suddenly struck by the thought of one of my fave movie, ‘When Harry Met Sally’… when Harry said he always reads the last page of the book first in case he didn’t live long enuff to finish the book – then at least he knew the ending.

“Life is not certain. But death is certain”.

Then I read the last page. Well, now I know Katie will re-unite with her family despite the divorce-calling first page. Haha. My head still hurts today, I still can’t go online. I feel so disconnected from the world. Nobody SMS me yet. Sigh. Oh well.

Shall work on my newswrite article now. Ciao.



::american pie::

For some reason, I hate the song that I used to love so much. Hmm… I refuse to admit why. And for some reason, I can’t go online. Something fishy is going on. For some reason, people I sms did not reply me. That is unexplainable. I slept for a while without brushing my teeth and then I woke up, and realised. So now, I am wide-awake. I am typing this on Words. Try sleeping on depression but it blardee hell did not work. My right brain has been hurting since last nite. My neck aching from dunno-what reasons.

I couldn’t get any work done today. Yeah, I felt pretty drained and still a bit depressed. Gosh. I just wish everything would just freeze for a moment so I can breathe for a while *breathe* Not working. Went to Orchard to stone for hours. Listened to the entire Avril Lavigne’s Let Go album at HMV. She’s pretty good.

Last nite, Nick called. That kiddo is mad. Stereotyping Mass Comm girls.

Mebbe I will just post this tomolo. Back to dreamland. Nite.

posted by ingenue @ 9:08 PM

::depressed::

If i can't walk with them,
can i walk with you?
If my heart's not with them,
can my heart be with you?
If we are not the same,
can we still be different?
I would listen when nobody does.
I would care as long as I could.
Here I am.
Standing beside you.
Don't walk away.

posted by ingenue @ 10:50 AM

::writing poetry...??::

Jus finished SEDP class, and yeah... we wrote poems. Okie, i can't write poems, you knoe... for the sake of writing one. I need inspiration or... at least time. Although i had something to express in mind but... my mind's so cluttered that i can't formulate proper sentences... and even more think of the RIGHT words. Hmm, rotting in the labs till 6pm for my newswrite interview again. Sien lerr... I desperately wanna go home and zzzzz. I need more zzzzz. Mebbe i will go to the library to watch a movie.

Here's the poems i wrote in class. The lecturer wans the paper back... so i better type this out.

Stranger's Eyes
There were times when our eyes meet.
But now, you just look away.
Too little words to say.
Or detrimental words unsaid.
My eyes are tired now.
Looking elsewhere.
At another stranger.

OUCH
A broken nail on my desk.
With purple nail polish.
Nursing a scratch across my face.
Temporary pain.
I can take it.

Okie, I know it's like elementary and yeah, sucky... if that's the right word to describe. I read some palms today... I didn't dare say some stuff esp to my lecturer, so instead i asked her questions. Hehe, yeah i read my lecturers' palm. Interesting, eh? Me gonna do abit of surfing then go watch movie.

Thought of the Day
Why do we have so many faiths? Why do some people judge you by your faith? Why does faith prevent me from my desires? Sigh.

posted by ingenue @ 1:16 AM

::friday 13th::

BAD LUCK? Not really... was late again for Tv. Gosh, xiaowen when wll u ever wake up on time? Anywayz, now i have 5 mins to my drama class... and i'm here blogging... hahaha. Dun care larr. Just got out new TV assignment which is our final assignment too. scarreee... and yeah, my directors are Ice and Val. Well, still good luck to both groups!! Stress lever running high... chill out ppl... we are going to the beach rite after exam! Can't wait...*squeals*

posted by ingenue @ 10:55 PM

Thought of the Day

Why am i always attracted to younger guys? Hmm...

posted by ingenue @ 7:50 AM

::busy bee::

busy bee… making honey… surprise surprise, I didn’t blog yesterday. Y? doh. Anywayz, everyone is so “kan cheong” about work – issit me or I noticed ‘particularly’ our class 2T10? Hmm, at least I got 2 news story down and one more to go. Must start writing later! Burnt out man… I dreadfully need more rest and FOOD! I didn’t eat dinner last nite and lunch today. Surprisingly, I don’t get gastric. Oh well.

Yesterday was mad man… Ice and I went to Heeren twice to get our interviews and photo shoots for online publication. Then somemore hafta rushed back to school for newswrite and get my hp! (yeah, careless me for losing my hp again! Luckily my UFS lecturer went to get it for me!) Poor Ice suffered from high fever today… get well soon, dude… Thanks for your hard work man. I feel so *choked up* grateful.

To the bosses and staff from Check Footwear, Toss, Footloose, Clothes Matter, Paper Doll, Body Nits, Ego-In-Wear and Mon Cherie - thank you so so much for your help and gosh, you guys make us better mass communicators! Haha. I will never step into LIVIA again… stoopid owner didn’t even wanna listen to what we gonna say. Next stop, Far East Plaza.

Highlight of the my 9/11 yesterday:-
Getting my interview. After being screamed by my interviewee, “xiaowen! U disrupt my training… I throw your big microphone out!!!” (I was caught interviewing another possible interviewee while holding Ash’s karaoke mic)… and he scared the shit out of me. I was told he has got PMS 24/7. No wonder. Then I waited for blardee 5 hours for him to finish his training to get my interview (and never gotten my interview recorded. I hate technology). And wat did I do for that whole 5 hours? *snicker* This 1st year chap called Nick from ECE came to asked me about what are the health hazards caused by drinking. Yeah, and that’s when we started to talk and had a get-to-know-you session. Amazing thing was he is like a male replica of ME. Gosh, we are both the BIGGEST Nirvana fans (He told me he performed “Smell like Teens Spirit” at the pagentino hop nite). Plus he likes Hole too! Radiohead… Beatles… Deftones… Led Zeppelin… Rolling Stones… Then you would never believe this – he’s a JOHN CUSACK FAN… I was stunned, ok? I mean I don’t know any guys who talk about John Cusack’s work even more appreciates his work. We talked about our all-time fave movies… and damn, he likes everything I like. Bugger. My newfound best fren larr. Good thing we exchanged numbers… plus he is cute anyway *grinz*

Today is a boring day. I shall not talk about it. Adioz.

posted by ingenue @ 7:17 AM

::september 11th::

we remember the day that we suffer through writ, shocking images and footages of terrorism... people crying and dying... hatred, anger... and war... innocent eastern civilians sacrificed because of uncontrollable anger of BIG BROTHER. one of the world's famous and tallest monuments - now only dust and debris. conflicts between religions, pain and torture of desmond kon. we will never forget how amy felt when she couldn't contact her parents... but everything is back on track now. still we are reminded of the day, everyone's life has changed. in every little way. well, i even submitted a tile click to view my tile! and peace people... we love each other rite? *one minute silence*

posted by ingenue @ 11:47 PM

::pure torture of pr::

yeah! finally we handed up the media kit! one down... aiyoh, 6 more to go... very sien... tomolo morn still got UFS presentation at 8am. Can someone give me a morning call? Hmm, can't bear to be late another time... but i'm a PIG. Pigs just sleep and sleep. Just downloaded irc here... haha, today will be my official day accessing to mirc again. Erm, how exciting. Hmm... nothing to say.

thought of the day
love is like a violin.
the music may stop now and then.
but the strings remain forever.

posted by ingenue @ 9:10 PM

::disturbing violence::

For once comissu lecture is INTERESTING. We watched Natural Born Killers for our up-coming media depicting violence assignment. I’ve always wanted to watch it but never had the chance, after hearing aftermath of this movie. Yup, it was really really violent to the core… and gruesome as well. But I felt so inspired after watching the entire almost two hours film. It might have a negative impact on some people, but it had achieved its objective! It totally stimulates the viewers! And the simple key message: Don’t go killing people… and love your significant other above all cuz love conquers all! Hahaha, so cliché.

Well, that’s my interpretation of the film. Even maniacs like Mickey and Mallory have “love” for each other no matter how crazy or heartless they are when they go mass-killing. See? There is a soft side to this film besides the sex and violence. The ending massacre was really an eye-opener. I didn’t even cringe or wink cuz I can never imagine violence at that level. The sight of endless massacre and bloodbath. Truly amazing imagination by Oliver Stone! A brilliant editing with a mix of black & white picture and full colour, sexy angles… but the excessive cuts of Mickey’s bloody face is abit too much. Robert Downey Jr was very farnee, haha. He seemed more like an American maniac. I seriously wanna watch it again… care to join me?

And btw, I’m not weird or mad just cuz I appreciate film like that. I see it as a form of art. If the world kept making mundane films that will not be remembered after a few decades. Then we just have to watch more mundane films and accept it cuz the censorship board sez it’s “ok”… and we only keep our wildest imaginations in our puny lil’ heads… and absorb more ideas of conformity. Wah… very sad lerr. Hmm, to those of you who still thinks NBK sucks and makes you wanna puke… that’s alright. Everyone is different. But you don’t have to criticise it like that maaa… okie, I better shut up.

posted by ingenue @ 6:12 AM

::unproductive::

i dun knoe i am tokking about myself or somebody. it doesn't matter. anywayz, i just check the latest stats of my friend test and BEN scored the same as my best fren, Julie? Arrgghh! Tembak tembak.... also can get 60%... amazing. Jus had an enlightening conversation with a FREN on icq... hehehe, you knoe who you are... and wow, thanks for putting ur trust in me. Me promise to *zip mouth* Anywayz, tomolo is another day... PR at 8am... what a day to start... hmmm... gotta go to bed soon. it's 1207am. zzzzzzz.

posted by ingenue @ 9:14 AM